let yourself go...

Two years ago I encountered a difficult time in my life. I'll spare you the gory details. My whole life up in to this point, I followed my heart to lead me through every day. I had followed my heart and somehow managed to get it broken on the way. It was a very emotional time for me. I questioned everything in my life and began to follow my head, and listen to fools instead of my heart. This was very very foolish. During this time, I had lost faith in just about everything. For about six months, I didn't once open my heart up to the world. My heart felt like a dried prune. It had the beat of nilly vanilli (forged and weak). I had been scarred, abandoned, falsely judged, and I thought my heart was what got me into this mess in the first place.


After some time, I realized the blessing in disguise. This event had jolted my hemi back on A1A. This whole situation gave birth to a new job, a new home, new friends, new studio, new inspiration, new beauty and new love. I suddenly realised that the assault on my heart had led me to a valuable life lesson. At this point, I continued to follow my heart again, but it was not the same. I had lost a lot of abilities, intuition, and energy that I once had. I have been able to gain them back ten fold after a year or so of study, meditation, and exposure to great people.

Not following my heart for six months landed me with a heavy handy cap that I needed to fix. I cant imagine what a full year of heartless life would have done to me, I would have been deadened and zombified. To think about the people who are too afraid and miserable to love; its a quick downward spiral. I realised how low we can go when we don't love. Sadly enough, many of us don't love.
Since then my love has multiplied infinitely. I began living a life that was not controlled by me, but by all. I let myself be carried through life. I have complete trust in all and in turn all blessed me with so many gifts, opportunities, and friends.


When you believe in collective great spirit and let go of the reins of life, beautiful things happen. I'm not suggesting to just lay in bed or be lazy all the time and stagnate, I'm suggesting not to control every aspect of your life. Leave somethings up to chance, and have trust in the world. Things do happen for a reason. DO what you love to do and have complete faith that all will turn out lovely.Trying to control your whole life will land you in a very miserable place. I have seen and experienced the wrath of the unloving human and I hope I never have to see it again. Please for humanity, have faith and love in other people. We are all here in this bubble destroying it together- the least we can do is love each other.

We have become so detached from each other. Most of us spend more time gazing into the flicker of a computer screen or cell phone than we do gazing into each others eyes. I find it ironic that the US government adopted the phrase "united we stand divided we fall" when nine eleven tore us apart even more. People are more racist and quick to judge ever since that incident. We need to remember that regardless of where you were born, what religion you practice, what color of your skin, we are all dealing with the same issues on the same planet. we are all breathing the same air, drinking the same water, shedding the same tears.

Life is what you make it. If your open, fearless, and faithful, the world will provides you with the life you need. The more you give, the more you receive. I have given my life to music and to love. I feel absolutely no pressure from anyone or anything to do anything that I don't love to do. Our existence is love. Love each other.

peace.

special thanks to Dan Diaz for the stunning photos of Michigan.